Thursday, October 15, 2009
Ramblings and Rants - Trials
I just got done reading someone's recent blog post and all I can say is... WOW. I feel as if I could have been the one sitting at the computer typing it. Although we haven't gone through the same experiences in life, the outcomes and feelings of helplessness are still the same. I hate trials. I really do. I know that we are 'supposed' to love them, but in all honesty... nope, I don't. Maybe it's because I'm right smack dab in the middle of many... MANY trials in my life and I can't see what the point of my going through them is. I know that my heart has hardened toward people because of it. I know I'm supposed to be going through this period in my life gracefully, but I'm not. I'm fighting it tooth and nail. I just feel like I'm in a rut and no one 'gets it'. This has honestly been the worst year of my life and I hope... that 2010 will be better. Hope is all I've got people... that is all.
Ramblings and Rants - Urine
Wow... I really have to pee... like... A LOT. Which brings me to the following picture of Harry piggybacking Lloyd on his sweet, sweet scooter in the movie "Dumb and Dumber".
They are driving through the mountains in the crisp winter air and Harry has to pee so Lloyd says, "Just go man...". This is what I've been feeling like lately. I hate having to interrupt my TV watching or my Facebooking to head to the privy and do my business. Why can't I just pee my pants... and be done with it??? :O)
Jaren Quote
So... a few nights ago Ed and I were watching "The Biggest Loser" and they had a temptation challenge. It was a "Wheel of Fortune" type wheel with covered platters in each divider. Under only ONE of the covers was a 'golden ticket' of sorts to be able to pick the new teams. A highly saught after piece of paper! The hitch was that whatever you uncovered you had to take... mainly high calorie goodies. The first guy was up, spun the wheel and landed on a 1,000 calorie piece of chocolate cake. All of the other players were saying things like, "Oh, no..." and such. About 4 players later... another player uncovered a large frosted cupcake and Jaren, our 2-year-old mournfully laments, "Ooooooooooh noooooooo........ chocolate cake!!!" I was DYING laughing!!! It's so dang funny hearing some of the stuff that comes out of my kids' mouths! HA!!!
MORE MOVIE FAVORITES
"Becoming Jane" - 2007**
Starring Anne Hathaway as Jane Austen and James McAvoy as Tom Lefroy.
"The year is 1795 and young Jane Austen is a feisty 20-year-old and emerging writer who already sees a world beyond class and commerce, beyond pride and prejudice, and dreams of doing what was then nearly unthinkable - marrying for love. Naturally, her parents are searching for a wealthy, well-appointed husband to assure their daughter's future social standing. They are eyeing Mr. Wisley, nephew to the very formidable, not to mention very rich, local aristocrat Lady Gresham, as a prospective match. But when Jane meets the roguish and decidedly non-aristocratic Tom Lefroy, sparks soon fly along with the sharp repartee. His intellect and arrogance raise her ire - then knock her head over heels. Now, the couple, whose flirtation flies in the face of the sense and sensibility of the age, is faced with a terrible dilemma. If they attempt to marry, they will risk everything that matters - family, friends and fortune." - IMDB
"Miss Austen Regrets" - 2008 (appeared on Masterpiece Theater)
This is another film version of Jane Austen's life starring Olivia Williams as Jane Austen.
"Lost in Austen" - 2008 (TV Miniseries)
"Amanda, an ardent Jane Austen fan, lives in present day London with her boyfriend Michael, until she finds she's swapped places with Austen's fictional creation Elizabeth Bennett." - IMDB
"Cranford" - 2007 (TV Miniseries appeared on Masterpiece Theater)
Based on the novel by Elisabeth Gaskell. Starring Judi Dench.
"Wives and Daughters" - 1999 (TV Miniseries)
Featuring Justine Waddell as Molly Gibson.
"Little Women" - 1994**
Based on the novel by Louisa May Alcott. Starring Winona Ryder, Trini Alvarado, Claire Danes, Kirsten Dunst/Samantha Mathis, Susan Sarandon and Christian Bale.
"The Inheritance" - 1997**
Based on the novel by Louisa May Alcott.
"At the lush Evenswood estate in Concord, Massachusetts, Edith Adelon, a beautiful orphan, lives as the paid companion to the daughter of the wealthy Hamilton family, although they regard her as one of their own. Years ago, Henry Hamilton saved Edith from an Italian orphanage at the request of his long-deceased brother. Now, Edith is his daughter Amy's prized friend and confidante. As the Hamiltons await a trio of visitors for the annual Greens Cup horse race, Beatrice Hamilton asks for Edith's help in finding a suitable husband for a cousin, Ida Glenshaw, with one of two visiting eligible bachelors. But when it becomes clear that both the young men have affection for Edith and not Ida, jealousy soon develops, leading to malicious conniving and brutal backstabbing. Despite the growing love between Edith and one of the young suitors, because of their conflicting social classes, the couple is reminded time and again that their love can never be. The Inheritance is a story that centers on an innocent young woman's struggle to make sense of her position within the Hamilton household and in society, and the love she feels for her patrons, as well as for a young man she can never marry." - IMDB
"Jane Eyre" - 1997
Based on the novel by Charlotte Bronte. Starring Samantha Morton as Jane Eyre and Ciaran Hinds as Edward Rochester.
"Jane Eyre" - 1996
Based on the novel by Charlotte Bronte. Starring Charlotte Gainsbourg as Jane Eyre and William Hurt as Edward Rochester.
Starring Anne Hathaway as Jane Austen and James McAvoy as Tom Lefroy.
"The year is 1795 and young Jane Austen is a feisty 20-year-old and emerging writer who already sees a world beyond class and commerce, beyond pride and prejudice, and dreams of doing what was then nearly unthinkable - marrying for love. Naturally, her parents are searching for a wealthy, well-appointed husband to assure their daughter's future social standing. They are eyeing Mr. Wisley, nephew to the very formidable, not to mention very rich, local aristocrat Lady Gresham, as a prospective match. But when Jane meets the roguish and decidedly non-aristocratic Tom Lefroy, sparks soon fly along with the sharp repartee. His intellect and arrogance raise her ire - then knock her head over heels. Now, the couple, whose flirtation flies in the face of the sense and sensibility of the age, is faced with a terrible dilemma. If they attempt to marry, they will risk everything that matters - family, friends and fortune." - IMDB
"Miss Austen Regrets" - 2008 (appeared on Masterpiece Theater)
This is another film version of Jane Austen's life starring Olivia Williams as Jane Austen.
"Lost in Austen" - 2008 (TV Miniseries)
"Amanda, an ardent Jane Austen fan, lives in present day London with her boyfriend Michael, until she finds she's swapped places with Austen's fictional creation Elizabeth Bennett." - IMDB
"Cranford" - 2007 (TV Miniseries appeared on Masterpiece Theater)
Based on the novel by Elisabeth Gaskell. Starring Judi Dench.
"Wives and Daughters" - 1999 (TV Miniseries)
Featuring Justine Waddell as Molly Gibson.
"Little Women" - 1994**
Based on the novel by Louisa May Alcott. Starring Winona Ryder, Trini Alvarado, Claire Danes, Kirsten Dunst/Samantha Mathis, Susan Sarandon and Christian Bale.
"The Inheritance" - 1997**
Based on the novel by Louisa May Alcott.
"At the lush Evenswood estate in Concord, Massachusetts, Edith Adelon, a beautiful orphan, lives as the paid companion to the daughter of the wealthy Hamilton family, although they regard her as one of their own. Years ago, Henry Hamilton saved Edith from an Italian orphanage at the request of his long-deceased brother. Now, Edith is his daughter Amy's prized friend and confidante. As the Hamiltons await a trio of visitors for the annual Greens Cup horse race, Beatrice Hamilton asks for Edith's help in finding a suitable husband for a cousin, Ida Glenshaw, with one of two visiting eligible bachelors. But when it becomes clear that both the young men have affection for Edith and not Ida, jealousy soon develops, leading to malicious conniving and brutal backstabbing. Despite the growing love between Edith and one of the young suitors, because of their conflicting social classes, the couple is reminded time and again that their love can never be. The Inheritance is a story that centers on an innocent young woman's struggle to make sense of her position within the Hamilton household and in society, and the love she feels for her patrons, as well as for a young man she can never marry." - IMDB
"North & South" - 2004
Based on the novel by Elisabeth Gaskell.
"This series operates on many levels. At the heart of the series is the tempestuous relationship between Margaret Hale, a young woman from a southern middle class family who finds herself uprooted to the north, and John Thornton, a formerly poverty-stricken cotton mill owner terrified of losing the viability of his business. Around them are class struggles between the workers and mill owners and ideological struggles between the industrial North and the agrarian South. After moving North, Margaret's father befriends his student Mr. Thornton. Margaret has already formed her opinion of Mr. Thornton independently after seeing him treat his workers harshly. As the series progresses, she and we the audience begin to learn that his strict treatment is due to an overarching concern for his mill and by extension, his employees. John Thornton, on the other hand, is attracted to Margaret's independence and position in society as a well-educated Southerner. As in "Pride and Prejudice" the marriage proposal comes in the middle of the series and is rejected by Margaret. Contrary to "Pride and Prejudice" it is mirrored in social upheaval as the entire town is brought to its knees by a strike. The latter half of the series is an unraveling of the former misunderstandings ending in a romantic reconciliation which is again mirrored by reconciliation between workers and mill owners." - IMDB
Based on the novel by Thomas Hardy. Starring Ciaran Hinds.
"Jane Eyre" - 1997
Based on the novel by Charlotte Bronte. Starring Samantha Morton as Jane Eyre and Ciaran Hinds as Edward Rochester.
"Jane Eyre" - 1996
Based on the novel by Charlotte Bronte. Starring Charlotte Gainsbourg as Jane Eyre and William Hurt as Edward Rochester.
Based on the novel by Charlotte Bronte. Starring Ruth Wilson as Jane Eyre and Toby Stephens as Edward Fairfax Rochester.
"After living a miserable life with her aunt, orphaned Jane Eyre is sent to Lowood, a residential school for children of limited means. Jane takes the advice of her friend and over many years takes her studies seriously, eventually advertising for a position as a governess. She obtains a position in the home of Edward Rochester, where his ward, Adele, has recently come to live. She soon realizes that there is something odd in the house and she regularly sees shadowy figures in windows or hears voices. No one will admit to their being anyone else in the house, however. As she and her new employers develop a deep affection for one another, the secret of the Rochester household threatens to keep them apart." - IMDB
"Everafter: A Cinderella Story" - 1998**
"Everafter: A Cinderella Story" - 1998**
Starring Drew Barrymore and Dougray Scott.
"Danielle, sole daughter of a deceased French nobleman, is raised - more as a servant than as a stepdaughter - by cruel and snobbish Rodmilla together with her own two daughters Marguerite and Jaqueline. One day, she accidentally meets Prince Henry, the future king of France. A little later Danielle has to pretend to be a noble person and meets the prince again. This time, his interest in the young lady grows. But the day of the prince's marriage draws closer and closer without an official bride at hand. Actually, her stepsister Marguerite seems to have the best odds to win the race. But they all underestimated the power of true love, especially when a genius is at hand..." - IMDB
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Jane Austen Favorites
This post was inspired by my friend, Meghan, who is just now falling in love with Jane Austen! :O) She wondered what ones Jane Austen wrote and what ones I specifically liked since there are many versions of her classics! These movies just make me happy... plain and simple!!
(** - means that I own it if you'd like to borrow it!)
**This is the 1999 version starring Frances O'Connor as Fanny Price and Jonny Lee Miller as Edmund Bertram.
**I prefer the 1996 version of Emma starring Gwyneth Paltrow as Emma Woodhouse and Jeremy Northam as Mr. Knightley. As foolish of a girl as she is, she is still likable in this version.
I have to admit that this was my least favorite Jane Austen flick. It didn't really hold my interest and I felt that it ended way too abruptly.
(** - means that I own it if you'd like to borrow it!)
1. PRIDE & PREJUDICE (My favorite movie of all time!)
"Pride and Prejudice is a humorous story of love and life among English gentility during the Georgian era. Mr Bennet is an English gentleman living in Hartfordshire with his overbearing wife. The Bennets 5 daughters; the beautiful Jane, the clever Elizabeth, the bookish Mary, the immature Kitty and the wild Lydia. Unfortunately for the Bennets, if Mr Bennet dies their house will be inherited by a distant cousin whom they have never met, so the family's future happiness and security is dependent on the daughters making good marriages. Life is uneventful until the arrival in the neighbourhood of the rich gentleman Mr Bingley, who rents a large house so he can spend the summer in the country. Mr Bingley brings with him his sister and the dashing (and richer) but proud Mr Darcy. Love is soon in the air for one of the Bennet sisters, while another may have jumped to a hasty prejudgment. For the Bennet sisters many trials and tribulations stand between them and their happiness, including class, gossip and scandal." - IMDB (Internet Movie Database)
**I probably go against the grain as I prefer this version to the older version with Colin Firth portraying Mr. Darcy, although I love that movie as well! This one stars Keira Knightly as Miss Elizabeth Bennett and Matthew MacFayden as Mr. Darcy. I can feel the passion of the actors in this one and I don't know... I just LOVE it!
**This is the 6 hour version starring Colin Firth as Mr. Darcy. I love this one as well, but you need to set several hours aside if you want to sit down to watch this one! Mr. Collins just cracks me up in this one! HA!
2. PERSUASION
"In 1814 England, 27-year old Anne Elliot lives an oppressive life with her father, Sir Walter Elliot of Kellynch Hall, and her elder sister Elizabeth, both of whom are incurable snobs. Eight and a half years ago, Anne been persuaded to refuse an offer of marriage from the man she loved, a young naval officer of no position or fortune. Now, after the Napoleonic wars, Captain Wentworth has gained both rank and money, and chance has thrown them together again. Anne finds herself confronted with thoughts of might-have-been as she watches Wentworth court her brother-in-law's sister, Louisa. But an accident causes Wentworth to realize whom he truly cares for, and he follows Anne to Bath. But her cousin William (the heir to Kellynch Hall) is also pursuing her and is rumored to be engaged to Anne. And she must overcome this last obstacle before she can persuade Captain Wentworth as to the true nature of her affections." - IMDB
**I love the 2007 version that appeared recently on Masterpiece Theater. Didn't you just love this movie, Meg??? This one stars Sally Hawkins as Anne Elliot and Rupert Penry Jones as Captain Fredrick Wentworth. *Sigh*
I love this version from 1995 as well. It stars Amanda Root as Anne Elliot and Ciaran Hinds as Captain Fredrick Wentworth. I love this movie... what can I say?
3. MANSFIELD PARK
"At 10, Fanny Price, a poor relation, goes to live at Mansfield Park, the estate of her aunt's husband, Sir Thomas. Clever, studious, and a writer with an ironic imagination and fine moral compass, she becomes especially close to Edmund, Thomas's younger son. Fanny is soon possessed of beauty as well as a keen mind and comes to the attention of a neighbor, Henry Crawford. Thomas promotes this match, but to his displeasure, Fanny has a mind of her own, asking Henry to prove himself worthy. As Edmund courts Henry's sister and as light shines on the link between Thomas's fortunes and New World slavery, Fanny must assess Henry's character and assert her heart as well as her wit." - IMDB
This is the version that recently appeared on Masterpiece Theater. It is the 2007 version starring Billie Piper as Fannie Price and Blake Ritson as Edmund Bertram.
**This is the 1999 version starring Frances O'Connor as Fanny Price and Jonny Lee Miller as Edmund Bertram.
4. EMMA
"Based on the Jane Austen novel, "Emma" tells the story of a young woman in England who plays her town's matchmaker. When attempting to match up her friend with the Reverend Elton, Emma starts to run into complications, which multiply amongst themselves with cases of mistaken intentions of love, a cast of supporting characters who each love someone else, but Emma doesn't know who loves who, and Emma finally realizing the one person she truly loves." - IMDB
**I prefer the 1996 version of Emma starring Gwyneth Paltrow as Emma Woodhouse and Jeremy Northam as Mr. Knightley. As foolish of a girl as she is, she is still likable in this version.
This version stars Kate Beckinsale as Emma Woodhouse and just does the character no justice. I wanted to slap her throughout the whole movie.
5. SENSE & SENSIBILITY
"When Mr. Dashwood dies, he must leave the bulk of his estate to the son by his first marriage, which leaves his second wife and three daughters (Elinor, Marianne, and Margaret) in straitened circumstances. They are taken in by a kindly cousin, but their lack of fortune affects the marriageability of both practical Elinor and romantic Marianne. When Elinor forms an attachment for the wealthy Edward Ferrars, his family disapproves and separates them. And though Mrs. Jennings tries to match the worthy (and rich) Colonel Brandon to her, Marianne finds the dashing and fiery Willoughby more to her taste. Both relationships are sorely tried. But this is a romance, and through the hardships and heartbreak, true love and a happy ending will find their way for both the sister who is all sense and the one who is all sensibility." - IMDB
**The 1995 version starring Emma Thompson as Elinor Dashwood, Kate Winslet as her sister Marianne Dashwood and Hugh Grant as Edward Ferrars. LOVE IT!
6. NORTHANGER ABBEY
"Catherine Morland is taken to Bath, England by the wealthy Mr. and Mrs. Allen and introduces her to Georgian society. There she meets the social-climbing Isabella and John Thorpe, the handsome Henry Tilney and elegant Eleanor Tilney. After making an impression on Henry and Eleanor's father, the Tilneys invite her to their country mansion, Northanger Abbey. Catherine falls in love with Henry but realizes that love can be fickle and that money - and not just love - is an important consideration in the marriage business. The story is based on Jane Austen's novel of the same name, "Northanger Abbey"." - IMDB
I have to admit that this was my least favorite Jane Austen flick. It didn't really hold my interest and I felt that it ended way too abruptly.
What's In A Name???
OLIVER - (Scandinavian) - Kind, affectionate; (Latin) - Olive tree.
EDEN - (Hebrew) - delightful, paradise
JAREN - (Hebrew) - He will sing; he will cry out.
Why is choosing a baby name so stinkin' difficult??? Ed and I have been at odds when choosing the name for this little boy!
My favorite name is Jackson Edward Palmer and Ed's is Edison Jay or Edison Elias Palmer. Edison literally means "son of Edward"... yeah. We also both like Phineas and would shorten it to Finn. Both the older kids like Jackson and neither of them like Phineas.
I recently found a baby name book at Goodwill and I looked through all of the names in the baby boy section. Here is what I found that I like... (* - Ed likes these) (** - My favorites)
**Audie - a form of Edward
Ashby
Asher - happy, blessed
Audon - old, rich
Bain
Ballard - brave, strong
Beau - handsome
**Bennett - little blessed one
Bodin - messenger
Bodie
Brady - spirited
Brant
Breck - freckled
Camden
Chaim - life
Corbin
Curren
Denton - happy home
*Edison - son of Edward
Fane - joyful, glad
**Fayden
**Finnegan, *Finn, Finny
Hadley
**Harlow
Haywood
Hollis
**Jackson
Jasper
Joben
Joram
Jory
**Joss
* **Kane
Kannon
Keene
Lane
Magnus
Maximus
Micah
* **Phineas, Finn
Quinn
Raine
**Shea
**Shiloh
Sloan
Just tonight Ed told me that Jackson is growing on him. :O) We'll need to figure out the name soon. I only have 8 weeks left to decide!!! It's crazy because Jaren was a toss-up between Jaren and Jackson if he was a boy and Jaren for a girl as well. Who knows... we'll see what we decide in the end! :O)
Friday, October 9, 2009
Daily Gems - Our Test in Mortality
“Our challenges, including those we create by our own decisions, are part of our test in mortality. Let me assure you that your situation is not beyond the reach of our Savior. Through Him, every struggle can be for our experience and our good (see D&C 122:7). Each temptation we overcome is to strengthen us, not destroy us. The Lord will never allow us to suffer beyond what we can endure (see 1 Corinthians 10:13). “We must remember that the adversary knows us extremely well. He knows where, when, and how to tempt us. If we are obedient to the promptings of the Holy Ghost, we can learn to recognize the adversary’s enticements. Before we yield to temptation, we must learn to say with unflinching resolve, ‘Get thee behind me, Satan’ (Matthew 16:23).”
Robert D. Hales, “Becoming Provident Providers Temporally and Spiritually,” Ensign, May 2009, 7
Robert D. Hales, “Becoming Provident Providers Temporally and Spiritually,” Ensign, May 2009, 7
Oh, the Joys of Pregnancy
WARNING: Massive amounts of ranting and raving are about to take place. Read at your own risk.
I went to my regular OB visit to test for gestational diabetes and failed so off to my 4 hour test at the hospital. I downed the nasty orange drink that they give you in record time, only to feel sick about 1/2 hour later. I felt nauseus, lightheaded and had a horrible headache. I also had to visit the toilet... quickly a few times. I was fanning myself with a copy of the Ensign that I brought with me to read for the first hour. They called me back to get poked for the second time and I told them what was happening and that I felt as if I were going to pass out! They said that sometimes people feel sick during this test... YAY, ME! So, they led me down a little hallway to a small room and said that I could lie down on the examination table. YEAH... not the most comfortable thing invented. I would have much rather stretched out on the blue couch in the lobby, but I'm sure I would have gotten some dirty looks out there! So, after the second hour, I'm poked and the third hour, I'm poked again. Afterwards, they sent me home and told me that I would hear from my doctor.
I came home thankful that I could crash since I wasn't feeling well, as my in-laws were watching Jaren for me, but that didn't last too long since he was sick as well and had been crying all morning long. He had been on antibiotics for strep throat, as well as Eden, but he wasn't eating or drinking even. We took him to the doctor and found out that he had several sores in his mouth including a HUGE one on the side of his tongue! Poor little guy! The doctor said that it was a virus and that it just had to run its course. We got some stuff to numb it with the hopes of him at least drinking his milk, but he did NOT want to have anything to do with it! It sucks trying to take care of two sick kid, one of which just screams all day long, when I'm pregnant (anemic, horrible back pain, ligament pain) and sick as well. UGH! SERENITY NOW!!!!!! Some days I don't feel like I can handle it! I've been EXTREMELY tired and have been nodding off while laying on the couch or sitting in the recliner which is soooooooo not like me!
Soooo... a few days later, my OB calls and says that I passed the test. So... I guess I don't have gestational diabetes. Which is a good sign! But... my bad headaches, fatigue, nausea, back pain, etc. are still plagueing me. So... why is that I wonder. Many friends say... preeclampsia??? So... I look up preeclampsia and now I'm really worried because it sounds just like me. Plus the fact that they didn't test my urine for protein the last time that I was in there because I couldn't pee... yeah... that's really odd for me right about now... not being able to pee! So... I call my doctor, see a different woman since my doc is on vacation and find out that everything is okay. She says I probably just have a touch of the flu or something that the kids had. At least I know it's not serious.
To put it plainly... I feel like crap... all day... every day. I know that I should be grateful to be able to get pregnant and carry my babies... but I hate it. I hate the way it makes me feel. I seriously feel like I have the flu for 9 months, but worse. I have had chronic lower back pain for the last 10 years so I know what it's like to be uncomfortable every day, but this pain that I've been in for the last several months is almost unbearable. There are days that I can barely get myself to the restroom let alone care for my 2-year-old!!! I'm in CONSTANT pain. PAIN. I know that ladies suffer from backaches in pregnancy, but this is just ridiculous! I've seen my doctor, my OB, my chiropractor and a physical therapist for it, but it just does not go away and it's only getting worse the bigger this kid gets! I just want to scream some days. And I'm soooooooo freakin' tired... it's not even funny! I know that since I'm anemic that really doesn't help the situation and having two surgeries and recovering from those doesn't help. I take gobs and gobs of medicine on a daily basis that I usually gag on and throw back up... AWESOME. Plus, I can't sleep at night because of pregnancy insomnia and back pain! I can't wait for the next few weeks to pass. I pray that I can get better soon after I have this kid. Don't even get me started on my mental state... or my spiritual state... I feel like I've been to hell and back. I feel like my prayers aren't being heard. It just feels like everything is piling up on top of me and I honestly don't know how much more I can take. I can understand why people want to hurt themselves. Seriously. Most days I just feel like a zombie and I just want to stay in bed ALL DAY LONG. I really signed up for this?! Really? Reeaaalllly?!? I know there is a reason for my going through all of this... just don't ask me what the crap that reason is... because I haven't the slightest idea. This baby had better be healthy... that's all I have to say about that! (But... since it's a boy... I'm sure he'll be as sickly as my other two... woo-hoo!)
I went to my regular OB visit to test for gestational diabetes and failed so off to my 4 hour test at the hospital. I downed the nasty orange drink that they give you in record time, only to feel sick about 1/2 hour later. I felt nauseus, lightheaded and had a horrible headache. I also had to visit the toilet... quickly a few times. I was fanning myself with a copy of the Ensign that I brought with me to read for the first hour. They called me back to get poked for the second time and I told them what was happening and that I felt as if I were going to pass out! They said that sometimes people feel sick during this test... YAY, ME! So, they led me down a little hallway to a small room and said that I could lie down on the examination table. YEAH... not the most comfortable thing invented. I would have much rather stretched out on the blue couch in the lobby, but I'm sure I would have gotten some dirty looks out there! So, after the second hour, I'm poked and the third hour, I'm poked again. Afterwards, they sent me home and told me that I would hear from my doctor.
I came home thankful that I could crash since I wasn't feeling well, as my in-laws were watching Jaren for me, but that didn't last too long since he was sick as well and had been crying all morning long. He had been on antibiotics for strep throat, as well as Eden, but he wasn't eating or drinking even. We took him to the doctor and found out that he had several sores in his mouth including a HUGE one on the side of his tongue! Poor little guy! The doctor said that it was a virus and that it just had to run its course. We got some stuff to numb it with the hopes of him at least drinking his milk, but he did NOT want to have anything to do with it! It sucks trying to take care of two sick kid, one of which just screams all day long, when I'm pregnant (anemic, horrible back pain, ligament pain) and sick as well. UGH! SERENITY NOW!!!!!! Some days I don't feel like I can handle it! I've been EXTREMELY tired and have been nodding off while laying on the couch or sitting in the recliner which is soooooooo not like me!
Soooo... a few days later, my OB calls and says that I passed the test. So... I guess I don't have gestational diabetes. Which is a good sign! But... my bad headaches, fatigue, nausea, back pain, etc. are still plagueing me. So... why is that I wonder. Many friends say... preeclampsia??? So... I look up preeclampsia and now I'm really worried because it sounds just like me. Plus the fact that they didn't test my urine for protein the last time that I was in there because I couldn't pee... yeah... that's really odd for me right about now... not being able to pee! So... I call my doctor, see a different woman since my doc is on vacation and find out that everything is okay. She says I probably just have a touch of the flu or something that the kids had. At least I know it's not serious.
To put it plainly... I feel like crap... all day... every day. I know that I should be grateful to be able to get pregnant and carry my babies... but I hate it. I hate the way it makes me feel. I seriously feel like I have the flu for 9 months, but worse. I have had chronic lower back pain for the last 10 years so I know what it's like to be uncomfortable every day, but this pain that I've been in for the last several months is almost unbearable. There are days that I can barely get myself to the restroom let alone care for my 2-year-old!!! I'm in CONSTANT pain. PAIN. I know that ladies suffer from backaches in pregnancy, but this is just ridiculous! I've seen my doctor, my OB, my chiropractor and a physical therapist for it, but it just does not go away and it's only getting worse the bigger this kid gets! I just want to scream some days. And I'm soooooooo freakin' tired... it's not even funny! I know that since I'm anemic that really doesn't help the situation and having two surgeries and recovering from those doesn't help. I take gobs and gobs of medicine on a daily basis that I usually gag on and throw back up... AWESOME. Plus, I can't sleep at night because of pregnancy insomnia and back pain! I can't wait for the next few weeks to pass. I pray that I can get better soon after I have this kid. Don't even get me started on my mental state... or my spiritual state... I feel like I've been to hell and back. I feel like my prayers aren't being heard. It just feels like everything is piling up on top of me and I honestly don't know how much more I can take. I can understand why people want to hurt themselves. Seriously. Most days I just feel like a zombie and I just want to stay in bed ALL DAY LONG. I really signed up for this?! Really? Reeaaalllly?!? I know there is a reason for my going through all of this... just don't ask me what the crap that reason is... because I haven't the slightest idea. This baby had better be healthy... that's all I have to say about that! (But... since it's a boy... I'm sure he'll be as sickly as my other two... woo-hoo!)
Celebration of My 31-ness!
English
Happy Birthday!
French
Joyeux Anniversaire
German
Alles Gute zum Geburtstag!
Greek
Eytyxismena Genethlia! or Chronia Pola!
Hawaiian
Hau`oli la hanau!
Hebrew
Yom Huledet Same'ach!
Italian
Buon Compleanno!
Japanese
Otanjou-bi Omedetou Gozaimasu!
Klingon
Quchjaj qoSlIj!
Navajo
bil hoozho bi'dizhchi-neeji' 'aneilkaah!
Norwegian
Gratulerer med dagen!
Portuguese
Feliz Aniversario! or Parabens!
Russian
S dniom razhdjenia! or Pazdravliayu s dniom razhdjenia!
Spanish
Feliz Cumpleanos!
Swahili
Hongera! or Heri ya Siku kuu!
FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 25th - Since Ed worked on my actual birthday, we celebrated the day before! He took the day off of work and so we celebrated by going to lunch at the Isle of Capri Buffet. My favorite thing there was a spinach salad with craisins, slivered almonds, strawberries and some sort of poppyseed dressing. It was DIVINE!!! We took Jaren with us since it was during the day, but we had fun! After that we went shopping for a bit.
There were no movies out that we really wanted to see and since my back had been hurting alot lately bowling or any other physical activity was out of the question. So Ed took me out to dinner. Can you tell we love food? :O) Anyways... we were going to go out to eat at Texas Roadhouse, but the wait was about 65 minutes and I was starving! So, Ed suggested we go to Montage on the parkade. He had never eaten there before so I thought that was a great idea! :O) It was nice to eat at a little fancier restaurant, but holy smokes was it expensive! YOWZA!!! We got some chips and a monterey jack & poblano cheese dip for the appetizer. It was okay. I liked the other cheese dip I got there before lots better. Ed got a southwestern chicken breast entree with garlic mashed potatoes and I got the cashew encrusted rosemary chicken with lime dipping sauce and corn pudding. It was pretty good, but the dipping sauce was nasty. For dessert we split a chocolate souffle which was DELISH! Ed wanted to see if I could get a dessert for free, but he didn't want to ask because he didn't want to sound like a dork. He told our waitress that it was my birthday and she just said, "Oh... Happy Birthday!" When she left, Ed was like "That didn't turn out the way that I hoped it would!!!!" WAH... WAH... WAAAAHHHH... :O) We had a really fun time together! Thanks, Babycakes!!! I LOVE YOU!!!
SATURDAY, September 26th (My 31st Birthday) - This morning Meghan, her sister and mom picked me up for a day of scrapbooking in Traer! We were there from 10:30 am - 4:30 pm and I LOVED every minute of it! We got to scrap in a store called Scraptopia and could also buy what supplies we liked. I went a little crazy... I mean... who wouldn't in a store full of darling papers and embellishments!!! :O) I'll have to take a photo of the layouts I created! We chatted, ate, laughed and scrapped and it was GREAT! Thanks, Meg! I sooooooo needed a scrap day! We need to get together soon for another girl's night of scrapping!
UNI Panther Football
SATURDAY, September 19 - UNI Panthers vs. St. Francis (PA)
John Deere was a sponsor for the UNI game today and so they tailgated and offered tickets for $10 each! So we took the two older kids as Jaren would be running around the whole time and I wasn't about to be chasing him up and down the cement stairs and Ed's dad came with us as well! It took us a while to find where they were tailgating, but we finally found it and we ate while the kiddos jumped on some inflatables for a bit. They had just redone the astroturf on the field and were giving away 1 ft. x 1 ft. squares of the old stuff, so we got some and I may make a frame out of it for the kids. I actually graduated from high school on that turf and Ed graduated from UNI on it as well! Anyways... before the game I painted the kiddos faces and even Jaren wanted his painted as well. He sat sooooooo still for me as I painted some panther paw prints across his face! :O) We saw Eden's teacher with her family as well as a friend of my mom's and my friend, Amy with her husband and kiddos! It was a fun time! I enjoy learning about football from Ed and I feel like I can ask him as many dumb questions as I want to!!! :O) Thanks, Babe! It was such a fun afternoon!
Stacy's Movie Corner
SEPTEMBER 2009 - "Julie & Julia"
Some of us ladies from church (Susie, Diana, Jean, Meghan, Krista and I) went to the late night showing of this movie and I have to say that I was very surprised at how FUNNY it was! I really didn't care to see it, but of the two we could see I thought this one would be better so we all decided to go to this one. Susie had seen it and enjoyed it.
I thought we all needed to run out and get a set of pearls to wear when we are together again! HA! It was a really good movie! When the movie let out around midnight all of us were quoting it and doing Julia's signature head bobble and laugh! We soooooo needed a Girl's Night Out! :O) Too bad when Ed goes to 2nd shift... I'll miss out on the fun!
TWO THUMBS UP...
Some of us ladies from church (Susie, Diana, Jean, Meghan, Krista and I) went to the late night showing of this movie and I have to say that I was very surprised at how FUNNY it was! I really didn't care to see it, but of the two we could see I thought this one would be better so we all decided to go to this one. Susie had seen it and enjoyed it.
I thought we all needed to run out and get a set of pearls to wear when we are together again! HA! It was a really good movie! When the movie let out around midnight all of us were quoting it and doing Julia's signature head bobble and laugh! We soooooo needed a Girl's Night Out! :O) Too bad when Ed goes to 2nd shift... I'll miss out on the fun!
TWO THUMBS UP...
"Maybe HE's Born With It... Maybe It's Maybelline!"
Bear letting Lulu apply some make up to his cheeks!
Bear and Lulu
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